Last night, for the 2nd time in a week, I have had a dream where it was the 1st day of school and I was a teacher. One time I was teaching 4th grade English, the 2nd it was high school science (yeah, I can see myself doing that ...)
For the 1st time in my life I finally feel like I know what I am supposed to be doing as my contribution to society. I want to be a teacher. I want to make an influence in the lives of future generations. I feel like I handle kids/pre-teens well. You still have some influence over their behaviors. I miss the days of creative book reports and spelling tests on Friday mornings. I miss grammar workbooks and journal writing. I want to go back to the days where times were easier. I loved 6th-8th language arts and I want to relive those days through the coming generations.
I am going to go back to school. I'm not exactly sure when but I know I won't start anything until I've lifted myself out of my self-inflicted debt. I don't know how long it will take to complete but I'm figuring a degree in journalism is a good base and may only have to take 2 years with a semester of student teaching. That doesn't seem unreasonable right?
I feel settled knowing I have a goal for myself and I know what I finally want to do. Abt is only temporary and I know that. I love my job (sometimes) but most of all I love the people I work with and I'm okay with staying there for now. But only for now. I'll be a teacher soon enough if all the cards play out. I just have to keep telling myself there's no hurry ... I'm barely 23 .... there's still time.
In current news, softball season is over. We lost yesterday and our team looked like crap. I know that 2 of our top sluggers were playing on the other team on a field across the way, but still. It just wasn't us out there. What I also didn't know was that in the play offs they put the B league teams against the A league teams. Now I don't find that fair. That's like putting a major league team against a minor league team in the world series.
Whatever, we had a lot of fun and still won money (I don't get to see any of it though ... we'll probably have a gathering of sorts) and got an awesome trophy with a spinning ball on it.
That's all I've got. Work work work. That's all I do. It's 11:30 now and I'm ready for bed. Didn't get off until 10 tonight. Yay overtime.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
4 weddings and a funeral (or not)
There is nothing exciting going on in my life right now, except that I seem to be crazy busy. I can't believe how fast this summer has flown by. I don't feel like forming complete thoughts so I'll retreat back to the day of bullet points.
- Last night was a much needed GNO with Lauren. We went to Cheeseburger in Paradise for dinner & drinks and then went to see The Dark Knight over in Woodridge. We had to sit in the lower level since we got there 10 minutes before the movie but it was still amazing & even better the second time around.
- I may have just added 2 more weddings to this year. Lauren asked me to go with her to Kansas City (not sure which one) for Josh's wedding. I'm not so sure about that one. I would love to go but I would have to a) give up my Labor Day Weekend Saturday so I can have August 16th off and b) possibly use a vacation day for that Friday. That I'm not sure would go over so well. But I'm going to ask my boss when the time is right.
- The other wedding is October 4th and that's for Bob-ge-Bob's (Tony Merker). Same crowd as Josh's and I haven't seen those guys since ... well, since we were all on drumline together junior (or was it sophomore) year? I miss those days.
- And then I have Emily & Mike's wedding with John October 25 (I think). Why is everybody getting married this summer?
- Monday I start working the night shift (12-9) and I'll be back at my apartment. Fun times.
- Tonight is Nicole's birthday party at this Whirlyball place in Vernon Hills. It should be a fun time.
- And lastly, last night I paid $3.95 for gas. I still had half a tank but felt the need to fill up anyway because who knows if it's going to spike back up again.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I have nothing witty to put here ...
Today pretty much rocked. Why you ask?
Because I got to sleep in (until 8:30) and didn't have to work until noon (yay!). I decided to go for a bike ride since I suck at exercising and really want to start losing weight. I only went about 2 miles because my bike (that I've had FOREVER) is quite uncomfortable ... I'm going to have to get a softer seat for it.
My Aunt picked me up at 10:30 and we stopped for lunch before going to work (hooray for not having to waste any gas!). Work was EXTREMELY busy up until I left at 9 to go play softball.
Softball ... the main reason for the rocking of the day.
It's playoff time and we completely kicked the crap out of this team. Actually, that's an understatement. We've won PLENTY of games due to slaughter rule this season (probably more than half) and this game was about 15-0 by the 3rd inning. Now we play next Monday (I'll have to adjust my hours to make sure I'm working a full day) AND Tuesday. I'm hoping to convince my parents to let me stay at their house next week so my aunt can continue to drive me while I'm working the night shift next week and the following.
Speaking of next week, I can't believe Andrew's wedding is next Saturday. Holy crap that came up fast. It'll be nice to see everyone again.
Well, I think it's time for bed. I just got home and am exhausted. I'm so used to going to bed at 9:30 that staying up until 11 is killing me. My body clock is going to be jacked up these next couple of weeks. I'll get used to staying up later (good new for Greg) and waking up when it's light outside. Then I'll go back to my regular schedule and everything will be a mess. This'll be fun.
I also think I'm going to head to work early tomorrow and work out for an hour and then shower there. That'll be a habit I have to try to get into.
Night!
Because I got to sleep in (until 8:30) and didn't have to work until noon (yay!). I decided to go for a bike ride since I suck at exercising and really want to start losing weight. I only went about 2 miles because my bike (that I've had FOREVER) is quite uncomfortable ... I'm going to have to get a softer seat for it.
My Aunt picked me up at 10:30 and we stopped for lunch before going to work (hooray for not having to waste any gas!). Work was EXTREMELY busy up until I left at 9 to go play softball.
Softball ... the main reason for the rocking of the day.
It's playoff time and we completely kicked the crap out of this team. Actually, that's an understatement. We've won PLENTY of games due to slaughter rule this season (probably more than half) and this game was about 15-0 by the 3rd inning. Now we play next Monday (I'll have to adjust my hours to make sure I'm working a full day) AND Tuesday. I'm hoping to convince my parents to let me stay at their house next week so my aunt can continue to drive me while I'm working the night shift next week and the following.
Speaking of next week, I can't believe Andrew's wedding is next Saturday. Holy crap that came up fast. It'll be nice to see everyone again.
Well, I think it's time for bed. I just got home and am exhausted. I'm so used to going to bed at 9:30 that staying up until 11 is killing me. My body clock is going to be jacked up these next couple of weeks. I'll get used to staying up later (good new for Greg) and waking up when it's light outside. Then I'll go back to my regular schedule and everything will be a mess. This'll be fun.
I also think I'm going to head to work early tomorrow and work out for an hour and then shower there. That'll be a habit I have to try to get into.
Night!
Monday, July 21, 2008
And then the catch ...
Yesterday my dad enlisted my help shopping for a couple outfits to give my mom for her birthday. He also used that as an opportunity to inform me that I will not be moving back home and living without cost.
It's not as bad as it sounds.
My step-grandma Hannah's condo finally sold and now my dad has her money in an account with our bank. He was talking about just paying off my Visa (my main headache) and then I'll pay them back and he'll just put the money back into her account. I like that idea because then I'll be saving $40 a month in finance charges. Hopefully I can get him to do that this week. That would rock.
Also, he says that I am going to give him $250 a paycheck and then he is going to use that money to save for me for when I move out and also to help pay off the Visa.
So they are not actually keeping money, just not allowing me to get into the habit of just carrying around money. However, little do they know that I already have several other credit cards floating around that I have outstanding balances on. I'm going to do some math but I think I'll still be able to put more money towards my credit cards and lower my debt; especially if I get a second job.
At least I'll have one month of no rent that my parents won't take to use on a few credit cards.
In other news. Today I was left by myself to deal with a bunch of technicians. The other girl that works in the morning called in ... at 8am. When she was supposed to be there at 7:30. And our final softball game is tomorrow night ... at 9:15pm. Needless to say I'm working the later shift tomorrow AND my aunt is going to pick me up in the morning & drop me off. Hooray for saving a day of gas! Although gas is lower. I was actually able to get it for $4.08 yesterday. I know that's not the type of thing that one should rejoice over but it made me feel happy.
Laundry time.
It's not as bad as it sounds.
My step-grandma Hannah's condo finally sold and now my dad has her money in an account with our bank. He was talking about just paying off my Visa (my main headache) and then I'll pay them back and he'll just put the money back into her account. I like that idea because then I'll be saving $40 a month in finance charges. Hopefully I can get him to do that this week. That would rock.
Also, he says that I am going to give him $250 a paycheck and then he is going to use that money to save for me for when I move out and also to help pay off the Visa.
So they are not actually keeping money, just not allowing me to get into the habit of just carrying around money. However, little do they know that I already have several other credit cards floating around that I have outstanding balances on. I'm going to do some math but I think I'll still be able to put more money towards my credit cards and lower my debt; especially if I get a second job.
At least I'll have one month of no rent that my parents won't take to use on a few credit cards.
In other news. Today I was left by myself to deal with a bunch of technicians. The other girl that works in the morning called in ... at 8am. When she was supposed to be there at 7:30. And our final softball game is tomorrow night ... at 9:15pm. Needless to say I'm working the later shift tomorrow AND my aunt is going to pick me up in the morning & drop me off. Hooray for saving a day of gas! Although gas is lower. I was actually able to get it for $4.08 yesterday. I know that's not the type of thing that one should rejoice over but it made me feel happy.
Laundry time.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
I guess i'll be coming out of retirement too ...
Just something that's been bothering me for a few days.
Lately, all over the sports radio and sports television, everybody seems to be obsessed with the idea of Brett Favre being released from the Packers organization, 'coming out of retirement' and signing with a different team; like the Bears.
Now it's not the possibility of him signing with the Bears that bothers me; the team will still possibly suck. It's the 'coming out of retirement' thing that irks me.
Why?
Because he's not coming out of retirement. I don't know why everyone keeps saying this. You CANNOT come out of RETIREMENT unless you haven't played the sport for at least one season. He just played last year. Summer camps have barely started. It's technically still the off-season. They make him sound like he's been out of the game for 5 years. He JUST played. And cried like a baby (ok not really) in a -40 weather game.
Seriously people.
Okay, time for presents & birthday cake with my mom & dad.
Lately, all over the sports radio and sports television, everybody seems to be obsessed with the idea of Brett Favre being released from the Packers organization, 'coming out of retirement' and signing with a different team; like the Bears.
Now it's not the possibility of him signing with the Bears that bothers me; the team will still possibly suck. It's the 'coming out of retirement' thing that irks me.
Why?
Because he's not coming out of retirement. I don't know why everyone keeps saying this. You CANNOT come out of RETIREMENT unless you haven't played the sport for at least one season. He just played last year. Summer camps have barely started. It's technically still the off-season. They make him sound like he's been out of the game for 5 years. He JUST played. And cried like a baby (ok not really) in a -40 weather game.
Seriously people.
Okay, time for presents & birthday cake with my mom & dad.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Flaws are what makes us unique
Nothing is perfect. Everyone and everything has some kind of flaw. And while the Dark Knight is pretty damn close to perfect, there were a few imperfections that I didn't like.
Now, these are all merely personal preferences, not general accusations.
1) Christian Bale's 'Batman' voice was really started to bother me as the movie progressed. It gradually became deeper and less realistic.
2) They killed dogs. I don't like that in any movie. It makes me sad.
3) The initial TwoFace I did not like. The final TwoFace, complete with suit, was everything I wanted and more since Tommy Lee Jones originally portrayed the role. I understand the idea of it being more realistic but the popping red was missing.
4) The length. I'm not used to sitting through 2 1/2 hours not being able to get up or change positions. However, every minute was worth it.
That's really it. I loved every minute of it and was never bored, waiting for the next action sequence.
I give it an A+
Everybody has their superhero crush. Many girls will say Batman. Others will say Superman. Some will say Spiderman.
I, however, say Hellboy. Why? I don't know.
Hellboy II tomorrow!
Now, these are all merely personal preferences, not general accusations.
1) Christian Bale's 'Batman' voice was really started to bother me as the movie progressed. It gradually became deeper and less realistic.
2) They killed dogs. I don't like that in any movie. It makes me sad.
3) The initial TwoFace I did not like. The final TwoFace, complete with suit, was everything I wanted and more since Tommy Lee Jones originally portrayed the role. I understand the idea of it being more realistic but the popping red was missing.
4) The length. I'm not used to sitting through 2 1/2 hours not being able to get up or change positions. However, every minute was worth it.
That's really it. I loved every minute of it and was never bored, waiting for the next action sequence.
I give it an A+
Everybody has their superhero crush. Many girls will say Batman. Others will say Superman. Some will say Spiderman.
I, however, say Hellboy. Why? I don't know.
Hellboy II tomorrow!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Would you like to buy some cookies?
For the 4th consecutive day this week I've taken a nap after work. Totally not my style at all. However, it does make me feel so refreshed and away the following day at work so I guess not going to bed until 10:30-11 is worth it.
Tonight Marianne & I went to DQ for some thin mint blizzards. Holy crap, they are amazing. I miss girl scout cookies.
The healthy eating thing isn't going all that well, as you can tell by the ice cream. Granted I did make enough chicken cesaer salad to last me a few meals and I made chicken breast and vegetables tonight, but I did surcome to my obnoxious stomach on the way home from work and got a McChicken and small fries from McDonald's. I really need to start exercising. That's the main thing. I'm just not motivated at all. I think I'm going to have to start going to the gym at Abt after work. I just need to do it continuously instead of once every couple of days.
Alright, time for bed. Dark Knight tomorrow after work with John. SO excited!
Tonight Marianne & I went to DQ for some thin mint blizzards. Holy crap, they are amazing. I miss girl scout cookies.
The healthy eating thing isn't going all that well, as you can tell by the ice cream. Granted I did make enough chicken cesaer salad to last me a few meals and I made chicken breast and vegetables tonight, but I did surcome to my obnoxious stomach on the way home from work and got a McChicken and small fries from McDonald's. I really need to start exercising. That's the main thing. I'm just not motivated at all. I think I'm going to have to start going to the gym at Abt after work. I just need to do it continuously instead of once every couple of days.
Alright, time for bed. Dark Knight tomorrow after work with John. SO excited!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I will survive!
Today at work was busy busy busy. We must be over our 'dry spell' because it's crazier than all get out and there is never a dull moment. Hopefully the 'no overtime' thing will cease and I can start increasing my paycheck a little bit.
I don't know if it's from sitting in a chair all day or what but the lower left side of my back was KILLING me today. It was almost to the point of unbearable when I was driving home. I put a hot pack on it when I got home and took a 2.5 hour nap. That seemed to dull it a little bit.
John called and wanted to hang out so we went to dinner & then over to his friend Carly's house and watched "Meet the Spartans" with a few people. Funny FUNNY movie. Now I've never seen '300' (and don't plan on it because I don't like battle movies) but I still got most of the references they threw in.
Now it's 10:45 and time for bed, even though I'm not really tired ... the downfall of naps in the afternoon. Nothing too exciting the next 2 days; maybe just a lot of working.
Night!
I don't know if it's from sitting in a chair all day or what but the lower left side of my back was KILLING me today. It was almost to the point of unbearable when I was driving home. I put a hot pack on it when I got home and took a 2.5 hour nap. That seemed to dull it a little bit.
John called and wanted to hang out so we went to dinner & then over to his friend Carly's house and watched "Meet the Spartans" with a few people. Funny FUNNY movie. Now I've never seen '300' (and don't plan on it because I don't like battle movies) but I still got most of the references they threw in.
Now it's 10:45 and time for bed, even though I'm not really tired ... the downfall of naps in the afternoon. Nothing too exciting the next 2 days; maybe just a lot of working.
Night!
Monday, July 14, 2008
Someboy's got a case of the Mondays ...
Ain't that the truth. Today was ridiculously busy; and I mean more so than a typical Monday. Let's put it this way: I didn't leave until 3:15. I get off at 2. I completed auxed out (no phone calls would come into me unless they were calling me directly) and was working straight on things I had not finished yet for over an hour. It was insane. I did, however, get the UPS list down to about 3/4 of a page. Now you people have no idea what I'm talking about, but it's a BIG deal.
This Monday is also, sad to say, the last 'easy' Monday for a while. Becky, one of the girls in our department ... the youngest and most talkative ... put in her 2 weeks and her last day is Saturday. Our department is understaffed as it is, now it's going to be even worse. Oh well, I'll probably get some overtime out of it ... money is good.
After work (and traffic, boo) I went to Maurices and FINALLY managed to get my outfit for Andrew's wedding in a few weeks. None of my dresses I currently have really fit me anymore (a good thing I guess) and the few that do I either wore recently around the same people (music formal) or are WAY too short/slutty to wear to a wedding. So I opted for a dress top and dress capris. I really like it and it comfortable, which is the most important part.
Hmmmm ... what else what else. Greg didn't want me to go see Hellboy II this past weekend because it wasn't playing in Macomb. I tried to come up with something that he would not want to do and then therefore I could still go see it anyway (which I almost did, but my guilty conscience got the best of me .... stupid conscience). That didn't work and now this coming weekend is going to be JAM PACKED filled with movies. Friday John & I are going to see the Dark Knight, Saturday Greg & I are going to see Hellboy II and then Sunday we're going to see Mamma Mia before I head up to my parents again for the week.
Marianne's best friend from high school is coming up to visit so instead of her sleeping on the couch and me being loud and obnoxious at 3:30 am when I'm getting ready for work, I decided to spend the week at my parents (with the cat ... again). It'll actually work out pretty well because Sunday is my mom's birthday and I know she would really like it if I was there. The whole family will be together for the 2nd weekend in a row. Shocking.
Now for the best part about Mondays ...
Jon & Kate Plus Ei8ht!!!
This Monday is also, sad to say, the last 'easy' Monday for a while. Becky, one of the girls in our department ... the youngest and most talkative ... put in her 2 weeks and her last day is Saturday. Our department is understaffed as it is, now it's going to be even worse. Oh well, I'll probably get some overtime out of it ... money is good.
After work (and traffic, boo) I went to Maurices and FINALLY managed to get my outfit for Andrew's wedding in a few weeks. None of my dresses I currently have really fit me anymore (a good thing I guess) and the few that do I either wore recently around the same people (music formal) or are WAY too short/slutty to wear to a wedding. So I opted for a dress top and dress capris. I really like it and it comfortable, which is the most important part.
Hmmmm ... what else what else. Greg didn't want me to go see Hellboy II this past weekend because it wasn't playing in Macomb. I tried to come up with something that he would not want to do and then therefore I could still go see it anyway (which I almost did, but my guilty conscience got the best of me .... stupid conscience). That didn't work and now this coming weekend is going to be JAM PACKED filled with movies. Friday John & I are going to see the Dark Knight, Saturday Greg & I are going to see Hellboy II and then Sunday we're going to see Mamma Mia before I head up to my parents again for the week.
Marianne's best friend from high school is coming up to visit so instead of her sleeping on the couch and me being loud and obnoxious at 3:30 am when I'm getting ready for work, I decided to spend the week at my parents (with the cat ... again). It'll actually work out pretty well because Sunday is my mom's birthday and I know she would really like it if I was there. The whole family will be together for the 2nd weekend in a row. Shocking.
Now for the best part about Mondays ...
Jon & Kate Plus Ei8ht!!!
Saturday, July 12, 2008
It's the little things they do to show their appreciation ...
And then there are the BIG things ...
Today at work started out like any other Saturday. I got there at 5:30am, made sure all the parts were there for the technicians, played my typical 'mother' role to 52 grown men (and woman). On Saturdays I'm by myself. That's a lot of people to look up parts for and get out the door in a timely manner. But I get it done quickly and efficiently. It did help that today Rob, one of our washer techs, brought me a large vanilla iced coffee from McDonald's. Granted, he did lose a bet we made during the Wrigley installment of the Crosstown Classic, but it was still a nice surprise. Then came the BIG surprise. Rami, a refer tech and one my favorites, handed me a $20 bill and told me to buy lunch on him.
Ummm ... I didn't even know how to respond to that. I thanked him of course and just put it quietly into my pocket. Am I allowed to accept generous gifts like that? I guess it's not illegal, just generosity.
And they are so generous (most of them), which makes me love what I do even more. I want to do something for them. Maybe find out when their birthdays are and just get them a card; just something small like that. Something to show they aren't passed over and are included within the department.
It's days like this that make me want to do something special for someone, just for being them.
I did clean the house today and do the laundry because my parents are coming back from their cruise tonight. I took the dog for a nice long walk because it was nice out. I said hi to a couple of kids I saw playing outside.
It's the littlest things that make people feel good and appreciated. I need to remember that more often.
Today at work started out like any other Saturday. I got there at 5:30am, made sure all the parts were there for the technicians, played my typical 'mother' role to 52 grown men (and woman). On Saturdays I'm by myself. That's a lot of people to look up parts for and get out the door in a timely manner. But I get it done quickly and efficiently. It did help that today Rob, one of our washer techs, brought me a large vanilla iced coffee from McDonald's. Granted, he did lose a bet we made during the Wrigley installment of the Crosstown Classic, but it was still a nice surprise. Then came the BIG surprise. Rami, a refer tech and one my favorites, handed me a $20 bill and told me to buy lunch on him.
Ummm ... I didn't even know how to respond to that. I thanked him of course and just put it quietly into my pocket. Am I allowed to accept generous gifts like that? I guess it's not illegal, just generosity.
And they are so generous (most of them), which makes me love what I do even more. I want to do something for them. Maybe find out when their birthdays are and just get them a card; just something small like that. Something to show they aren't passed over and are included within the department.
It's days like this that make me want to do something special for someone, just for being them.
I did clean the house today and do the laundry because my parents are coming back from their cruise tonight. I took the dog for a nice long walk because it was nice out. I said hi to a couple of kids I saw playing outside.
It's the littlest things that make people feel good and appreciated. I need to remember that more often.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Just for the sake of putting words somewhere
Nothing even remotely exciting and/or interesting is going on in my life right now yet somehow I feel like I need to write something somewhere.
I think that's what is missing. I miss writing. When I was down at Western, I was involved in writing, virtually on a daily basis. Whether it be a column, news article, editing my writers pieces or even just laying out a page for the Courier. I was involved and that's all that mattered.
I don't do that now. My writing consists of petty, meaningless blogs complaining about my life and the financial struggles I'm having. I know I need to take a few steps back every hundred miles and look at it from the eyes of someone not involved. From an outsiders point of view I have a very comfortable and meaningful life. I have an apartment in which I am able to afford rent and utilities on. I have a job where I'm great at what I'm doing and I have co-workers who have told me on numerous occasions that they don't know what they'd do without me. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me and would do (almost) anything for me and I have a cat who relies on me for survival.
I know I won't have this 'comfortable' life forever. I know I'll eventually have to leave Abt and pursue my dreams. But to do what? I don't know what my dreams are. Do I want to teach English? Do I want to work for a newspaper? What about a magazine? Who knows? I sure don't.
What I do know is that I want to write. Whether it be true life stories in teen magazines or little notes of encouragement on students papers, I want to put my degree to use.
What I don't understand, however, is why people keep asking me why I haven't started using my (really only 2 years of) college experience. What happened to that statistic where 60% of college graduates don't use their degree until they've already had 2 or 3 jobs under their belt? I'm only 22 ... 23 next month. I'm still young! I still have plenty of time to decide what I want to do.
I suppose I can start looking into freelance work; something I can do in addition to my current full time job. It's something to think about when I move back home. I know I'll have to get a second job to help relieve myself of some debt before starting the next journey in life.
The thing that I keep telling myself is that I don't know where I'm going to be in a year. Hell, I don't know where I'm going to be in 6 months. Things can change without warning. I can't plan ahead. I need to live day to day and just learn to survive that way. The rest will just fall into place.
I know it's a lot of rambling without much structure. But this is what goes on in my brain on a daily basis when I have time to myself to actually do some pondering about my life.
Does it make sense to anyone but me?
I think that's what is missing. I miss writing. When I was down at Western, I was involved in writing, virtually on a daily basis. Whether it be a column, news article, editing my writers pieces or even just laying out a page for the Courier. I was involved and that's all that mattered.
I don't do that now. My writing consists of petty, meaningless blogs complaining about my life and the financial struggles I'm having. I know I need to take a few steps back every hundred miles and look at it from the eyes of someone not involved. From an outsiders point of view I have a very comfortable and meaningful life. I have an apartment in which I am able to afford rent and utilities on. I have a job where I'm great at what I'm doing and I have co-workers who have told me on numerous occasions that they don't know what they'd do without me. I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me and would do (almost) anything for me and I have a cat who relies on me for survival.
I know I won't have this 'comfortable' life forever. I know I'll eventually have to leave Abt and pursue my dreams. But to do what? I don't know what my dreams are. Do I want to teach English? Do I want to work for a newspaper? What about a magazine? Who knows? I sure don't.
What I do know is that I want to write. Whether it be true life stories in teen magazines or little notes of encouragement on students papers, I want to put my degree to use.
What I don't understand, however, is why people keep asking me why I haven't started using my (really only 2 years of) college experience. What happened to that statistic where 60% of college graduates don't use their degree until they've already had 2 or 3 jobs under their belt? I'm only 22 ... 23 next month. I'm still young! I still have plenty of time to decide what I want to do.
I suppose I can start looking into freelance work; something I can do in addition to my current full time job. It's something to think about when I move back home. I know I'll have to get a second job to help relieve myself of some debt before starting the next journey in life.
The thing that I keep telling myself is that I don't know where I'm going to be in a year. Hell, I don't know where I'm going to be in 6 months. Things can change without warning. I can't plan ahead. I need to live day to day and just learn to survive that way. The rest will just fall into place.
I know it's a lot of rambling without much structure. But this is what goes on in my brain on a daily basis when I have time to myself to actually do some pondering about my life.
Does it make sense to anyone but me?
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
A 'journalist' complaining about the media? Never!
So I go to check my e-mail about 5 minutes ago and I come across this headline on the main page ...
"DA: New evidence clears Ramsey's"
Okay. I think it's time to break out my column, for the first time in a little less than 2 years.
Time for media to bury hatchet
08/23/07
For our parents' generation it was "where were you when JFK was shot?" For ours it's going to be "where were you on 9/11?" And lately it seems we can add "where were you when JonBenet Ramsey was murdered?" to that list of questions. But here's the thing about the latter: Who really cares?
Yes, she was only six when she was murdered the day after Christmas in 1996 in her middle-class Colorado home and I'm sure it was a heartbreaking experience for her family and friends, but it's 10 years later and people are still talking about it. I can understand still talking about Princess Diana or Martin Luther King Jr., but those were high-powered, well-known icons. Ramsey was just a typical 6-year-old who was forced to dress up in non-traditional outfits for her age and wear so much makeup that no one really knows what she actually looked like.
I'm going to completely ignore the whole child beauty pageant thing and move on to why America is still hooked on the murder of a potential future porn star.
Not to sound morbid, but children are murdered all the time. What makes this one so special?
A staff editorial on the news wire service www.copyboy.com that was published Monday entitled "How about some reverence for the Ramsey Case?" initially caught my attention. Don't get me wrong, I agreed with the point - that is, if I was still 11 and wearing my socks scrunched down over my jeans. But now it's 2006 and there are more important things going on in the world.
I'd throw in what I think happened to JonBenet, but that would take time and words that I don't have to spare.
Is it that people are just so used to hearing about this that they want to hear more? It seems that way because people feel more involved and essentially more intelligent when they are familiar with news headlines. But why not just open a newspaper and skim those articles? There are things that are actually affecting our lives today.
In an article titled "Why cable news pursues the JonBenet Ramsey case," Andrew Kohut, director of the Pew center for the People and the Press in Washington, states, "ratings will fall off but you'll still have a story that's big enough to move the needle and attract people who like this kind of stuff. That's what keeps cable news in business at times when there's not real breaking news."
"DA: New evidence clears Ramsey's"
Okay. I think it's time to break out my column, for the first time in a little less than 2 years.
Time for media to bury hatchet
08/23/07
For our parents' generation it was "where were you when JFK was shot?" For ours it's going to be "where were you on 9/11?" And lately it seems we can add "where were you when JonBenet Ramsey was murdered?" to that list of questions. But here's the thing about the latter: Who really cares?
Yes, she was only six when she was murdered the day after Christmas in 1996 in her middle-class Colorado home and I'm sure it was a heartbreaking experience for her family and friends, but it's 10 years later and people are still talking about it. I can understand still talking about Princess Diana or Martin Luther King Jr., but those were high-powered, well-known icons. Ramsey was just a typical 6-year-old who was forced to dress up in non-traditional outfits for her age and wear so much makeup that no one really knows what she actually looked like.
I'm going to completely ignore the whole child beauty pageant thing and move on to why America is still hooked on the murder of a potential future porn star.
Not to sound morbid, but children are murdered all the time. What makes this one so special?
A staff editorial on the news wire service www.copyboy.com that was published Monday entitled "How about some reverence for the Ramsey Case?" initially caught my attention. Don't get me wrong, I agreed with the point - that is, if I was still 11 and wearing my socks scrunched down over my jeans. But now it's 2006 and there are more important things going on in the world.
I'd throw in what I think happened to JonBenet, but that would take time and words that I don't have to spare.
Is it that people are just so used to hearing about this that they want to hear more? It seems that way because people feel more involved and essentially more intelligent when they are familiar with news headlines. But why not just open a newspaper and skim those articles? There are things that are actually affecting our lives today.
In an article titled "Why cable news pursues the JonBenet Ramsey case," Andrew Kohut, director of the Pew center for the People and the Press in Washington, states, "ratings will fall off but you'll still have a story that's big enough to move the needle and attract people who like this kind of stuff. That's what keeps cable news in business at times when there's not real breaking news."
Personally, if my child was murdered I wouldn't want it all over the news constantly. I feel bad for the family because they are constantly reminded of this terrible time.
They were normal people before this tragic event, and now they are the focus of the media and are constantly being reminded of the pain. That pain is always going to be there and that's hard enough to deal with without the made-for-TV movies and books that are being created.
Although reading through past reports and studies, the whole situation just seems a little off. Not only did the parents look incredibly suspicious at the time but John Karr, the latest suspect in the Ramsey case, said that he was with JonBenet when she died. OK.
Two questions come to mind. Why wasn't he questioned 10 years ago along with everyone else at the Ramsey house that day? And if he was with her, why didn't he do anything to help her - if he's innocent, of course.
This may be the first arrest linked to Ramsey but that still doesn't mean this case hasn't been beaten to death - whether or not the pun is intended is your choice. Karr's trial will probably last several months and, in that time, more speculation regarding Laci Peterson, Princess Di and maybe even the Lindberg baby will surface.
I'm surprised there hasn't been talk of suicide. If I was a 6-year-old being forced into all of these pageants and those outfits I would probably kill myself too.
For years there has been nothing new to report, yet somehow the case breaks headlines telling us something that was figured out years ago. For all we know Patsy Ramsey really did murder her daughter. Too bad she died in June. Now the world may never know the truth.
Seriously? This all needs to stop. It's been 12 years people! Kids die and get murdered all the time. What makes this 6 year-old-would-be-whore-when-she's-16 special?
Nobody gives a shit anymore. Get over it.
And while I'm bitching about the media: Amy Jacobson, you're a whore and need to be punched in the baby maker.
For those who don't know who Amy Jacobson is, she was the NBC news reporter who was caught over at Craig Stebic's house (husband and main suspect in the missing Lisa Stebic fiasco) with her 2 sons in her bikini. She was fired 5 seconds later and is now (almost a year later) suing NBC for invasion of privacy & because she had to move in to a smaller house because of her lack of employment. Boo frickin' hoo.
And adding to that subject, what makes Lisa Stebic special (and I don't mean this is a bad way since I know she's my friend's dad's cousin) but if I went missing I don't think it would make national news. People would assume me dead after a month and deal with it. Call it anti-hindsight or whatever, but it's true.
Okay, enough bitching for now. A Jon & Kate plus Ei8ht marathon is on and that should put me in a better mood. Plus I'm all sunburned from being outside at Great America all day.
They were normal people before this tragic event, and now they are the focus of the media and are constantly being reminded of the pain. That pain is always going to be there and that's hard enough to deal with without the made-for-TV movies and books that are being created.
Although reading through past reports and studies, the whole situation just seems a little off. Not only did the parents look incredibly suspicious at the time but John Karr, the latest suspect in the Ramsey case, said that he was with JonBenet when she died. OK.
Two questions come to mind. Why wasn't he questioned 10 years ago along with everyone else at the Ramsey house that day? And if he was with her, why didn't he do anything to help her - if he's innocent, of course.
This may be the first arrest linked to Ramsey but that still doesn't mean this case hasn't been beaten to death - whether or not the pun is intended is your choice. Karr's trial will probably last several months and, in that time, more speculation regarding Laci Peterson, Princess Di and maybe even the Lindberg baby will surface.
I'm surprised there hasn't been talk of suicide. If I was a 6-year-old being forced into all of these pageants and those outfits I would probably kill myself too.
For years there has been nothing new to report, yet somehow the case breaks headlines telling us something that was figured out years ago. For all we know Patsy Ramsey really did murder her daughter. Too bad she died in June. Now the world may never know the truth.
Seriously? This all needs to stop. It's been 12 years people! Kids die and get murdered all the time. What makes this 6 year-old-would-be-whore-when-she's-16 special?
Nobody gives a shit anymore. Get over it.
And while I'm bitching about the media: Amy Jacobson, you're a whore and need to be punched in the baby maker.
For those who don't know who Amy Jacobson is, she was the NBC news reporter who was caught over at Craig Stebic's house (husband and main suspect in the missing Lisa Stebic fiasco) with her 2 sons in her bikini. She was fired 5 seconds later and is now (almost a year later) suing NBC for invasion of privacy & because she had to move in to a smaller house because of her lack of employment. Boo frickin' hoo.
And adding to that subject, what makes Lisa Stebic special (and I don't mean this is a bad way since I know she's my friend's dad's cousin) but if I went missing I don't think it would make national news. People would assume me dead after a month and deal with it. Call it anti-hindsight or whatever, but it's true.
Okay, enough bitching for now. A Jon & Kate plus Ei8ht marathon is on and that should put me in a better mood. Plus I'm all sunburned from being outside at Great America all day.
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